My slaveboy is starting a process of transition, to a place where he will apparently be much happier. This makes me thrilled for him, because having owned him for two years, I think that things other than me should make him happy, and that hasn't happened too much. However, if he does get to this new place, he will be unable to continue as my slaveboy. This causes us both grief, because we don't want it to end.
There are zero local candidates for play. Of two local boys I can count who might want to play here again, one has a boyfriend and won't, and the other always finds a reason not to play here. The other local sub candidates of the appropriate age range who express interest are too flaky to get anywhere close to actually playing. Just tonight, one local guy who has expressed a BDSM interest in his gay.com profile, but has always shrugged off when I tried to talk to him, did the same thing after I pointed out his Recon profile with extensive BDSM interest—and denied that we had ever spoken in the first place. I lose interest really fast when I'm accused at the beginning of a chat of being either a liar or incompetent.
I've looked at Grindr and a couple of similar location-based services lately, but if there's more than quick anonymous vanilla hook-ups on them, I haven't found it yet. All they want are pics. Face pics, body pics, dick pics, ass pics, any pictures, it's all they want. That couldn't interest me less.
So, yeah, things are reasonably dark with no sign of a tunnel's end. I don't know what happens from here. I may just give up the online chatting for a while again. Last time I did that, I stayed out of public chat rooms for about three years. I don't know if I'm going to do it again or how long it would last. I just see no rational reason to continue on the same paths.
